Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
it's the little things.
this week hasn't been the best for me. i haven't really wanted to work out...i feel like i've been backtracking like crazy. i have a lot coming up that i have to take care of and i feel like i'm starting to fall back into old habits. which is not good. you would think with the changes i've been seeing, i'd be more prone to working out. but i haven't. i'm not sure what's going on with myself... i've just been extremely lethargic and unmotivated. this last week marks 3 months that i've been working out straight, without stopping more than 2 days. i am extremely happy and thrilled about that. i feel like what's happening now is what always eventually happens for me - i go for a while and then i quit. i'm not going to quit this time.
yesterday was a complete test of my willpower and motivation - and i completely failed lol. summerslam was on last night - and i had some friends over to watch it. we cooked things that we shouldn't have cooked - buffalo chicken dip, hot dogs wrapped in bacon... etc. it was a vegetarian's nightmare. of course there were drinks. we all had a good time - but i paid for it this morning. i felt like absolute garbage...i still feel like garbage as i'm typing this. i can't blame anyone but myself. all i want to do is sleep, and i can't. i feel absolutely despicable. i'm debating on whether i'm going to puke in an hour, or a few hours. because lord knows it's bound to happen.
the good thing is, though - is that i have started to notice tiny changes in my body. i haven't dropped the dress size i wanted to before my vacation, and i'm ok with that. shit happens. i have noticed, however, that i'm starting to gain definition in my arms, shoulders, and chest. my oprah flab isn't as prominent as it once was. (you know what i'm talking about, that fat in your tricep that hangs, and when you shake your arms it looks like you're about to fly away? yeah. that.) my booty is going in. my stomach (which is the most abhorred part of my body) has started to go in a little. my breasts have shrunk (i'm the least thrilled about that one). i'm also noticing that during my workouts, i'm able to go for longer periods of time without stopping. i'm jumping higher. i can go lower when i do push-ups. i'm doing more reps. the improvement is there, and i can feel it.
so after atlantic city? completely back on track. i'm going to be going through a mini-detox this week (no processed foods, lean meats, fruits and vegetables, good fats, etc.) to recover from this weekend. i'll unfortunately have to do the same thing after this weekend...but hey. i'm partying with my boys. it is what it is. after this weekend the focus is going to be put back on my music career, and losing this damn weight. i tend to shift back into my social life a little more than i should. old habits die hard.
so my tip of the day? don't beat yourself up for falling off track - just have a game plan to get things back in gear. and take pride in the little accomplishments. even if it's just "hey, i drank water all day today!", take that into account. 'cause it's the little things that are going to help you achieve that huge goal.
yesterday was a complete test of my willpower and motivation - and i completely failed lol. summerslam was on last night - and i had some friends over to watch it. we cooked things that we shouldn't have cooked - buffalo chicken dip, hot dogs wrapped in bacon... etc. it was a vegetarian's nightmare. of course there were drinks. we all had a good time - but i paid for it this morning. i felt like absolute garbage...i still feel like garbage as i'm typing this. i can't blame anyone but myself. all i want to do is sleep, and i can't. i feel absolutely despicable. i'm debating on whether i'm going to puke in an hour, or a few hours. because lord knows it's bound to happen.
the good thing is, though - is that i have started to notice tiny changes in my body. i haven't dropped the dress size i wanted to before my vacation, and i'm ok with that. shit happens. i have noticed, however, that i'm starting to gain definition in my arms, shoulders, and chest. my oprah flab isn't as prominent as it once was. (you know what i'm talking about, that fat in your tricep that hangs, and when you shake your arms it looks like you're about to fly away? yeah. that.) my booty is going in. my stomach (which is the most abhorred part of my body) has started to go in a little. my breasts have shrunk (i'm the least thrilled about that one). i'm also noticing that during my workouts, i'm able to go for longer periods of time without stopping. i'm jumping higher. i can go lower when i do push-ups. i'm doing more reps. the improvement is there, and i can feel it.
so after atlantic city? completely back on track. i'm going to be going through a mini-detox this week (no processed foods, lean meats, fruits and vegetables, good fats, etc.) to recover from this weekend. i'll unfortunately have to do the same thing after this weekend...but hey. i'm partying with my boys. it is what it is. after this weekend the focus is going to be put back on my music career, and losing this damn weight. i tend to shift back into my social life a little more than i should. old habits die hard.
so my tip of the day? don't beat yourself up for falling off track - just have a game plan to get things back in gear. and take pride in the little accomplishments. even if it's just "hey, i drank water all day today!", take that into account. 'cause it's the little things that are going to help you achieve that huge goal.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
off the course.
this past week was exceptionally difficult for me. i have a lot going on, and it just feels like all i'm doing is backtracking.
i gained .6lbs back. which, usually, isn't a big deal. and the thing about it was, i wasn't surprised. i knew exactly what i did, and why the weight was gained back.
so that wedding i went to? pork/bbq buffet. and no, i didn't resist. should i have? probably. and i have no excuse. the problem with me is that when i eat bad food, it's like a snowball effect. once i have something bad, everything has to be bad afterwards. it was a huge downward spiral, and it's extremely hard for me to get out of it.
but, you know what? i'm not going to beat myself up over it...which is what i would have done in the past. i can already feel that my body's starting to react to the shit i put in it. i feel sluggish, bloated, my legs have been fucking killing me (as a result of all the alc i drank, no doubt)....so i really can't do this anymore. all i want to do is eat veggies and drink shakeology. i'm doing my best the next couple of weeks to eat extremely clean so i can give myself a boost. the goal is to be in the 220's by the middle of september. energy in, energy out. ugh.
this week is my turbo recovery week...a lot of stretching and ez cardio classes. i'm going to be doing the inferno plan before my trip to atlantic city in a couple of weeks (aaaaah!!! i can't waaaaait!!!), so i want to see if i can really dedicate to this strict diet regimen. it's only 5 days. i shouldn't be so much of a pussy.
oh - just an added treat for y'all to see how i really bring it when i'm ACTUALLY on track:
i gained .6lbs back. which, usually, isn't a big deal. and the thing about it was, i wasn't surprised. i knew exactly what i did, and why the weight was gained back.
so that wedding i went to? pork/bbq buffet. and no, i didn't resist. should i have? probably. and i have no excuse. the problem with me is that when i eat bad food, it's like a snowball effect. once i have something bad, everything has to be bad afterwards. it was a huge downward spiral, and it's extremely hard for me to get out of it.
but, you know what? i'm not going to beat myself up over it...which is what i would have done in the past. i can already feel that my body's starting to react to the shit i put in it. i feel sluggish, bloated, my legs have been fucking killing me (as a result of all the alc i drank, no doubt)....so i really can't do this anymore. all i want to do is eat veggies and drink shakeology. i'm doing my best the next couple of weeks to eat extremely clean so i can give myself a boost. the goal is to be in the 220's by the middle of september. energy in, energy out. ugh.
this week is my turbo recovery week...a lot of stretching and ez cardio classes. i'm going to be doing the inferno plan before my trip to atlantic city in a couple of weeks (aaaaah!!! i can't waaaaait!!!), so i want to see if i can really dedicate to this strict diet regimen. it's only 5 days. i shouldn't be so much of a pussy.
oh - just an added treat for y'all to see how i really bring it when i'm ACTUALLY on track:
Monday, August 6, 2012
on the road again...
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