the lord is testing me.

insanity, day 3/4.

today was pure cardio. i was supposed to do cardio recovery yesterday, but my body decided to give me the middle finger and say, "meredith, sit 'cho fat ass all the way down."

today was food day at work. ahh, dreaded food day - when someone's birthday or special milestone is being celebrated, and it gives the team an excuse to bring in the most fattening, disgusting delectables in the world. as it turns out - i love baking. so i took it upon myself to make guinness cupcakes. with homemade bailey's frosting.

originally meant to be a st. patty's one-time-only deal, these cupcakes were so delicious and so popular, that i've had several requests to make them again and again.

clearly - bad idea.

i had two of them, hence breaking my paleo-strict diet.

and two oreos.

they were delicious.


my willpower has been something that i've worked on for years. it's gotten better - but i still find myself giving into temptation, like today, for example. my mind is still set on this goal - but with each passing day, it seems harder and harder to reach.

but i can't change what happened. i can only move forward. thankfully, my pure cardio workout was after i ate, so i'm sure i burned a calorie. or 700.

christine has opted to do another round of insanity - she's actually doin it with me. i'm not sure what it is about people working out with me - but i ten to push harder.


i have my first show tomorrow. i'm stressed as fuck.